changing world

2010-10-25T00:48:00.001+08:00

gee... i really wonder where you are now, what you're thinking, and what you're doing

2010-05-25T17:51:00.002+08:00

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2009-07-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

wassup! i FINALLY managed to get the third book in the dark templar saga. after like..super long, haha. anyway, been really busy lately. didnt really have much time to slack. and i blame bloody integration for being so freakin bloody nonsensical! most of my time was spent on it -.-'' last fri was the first time i had ppl stay over in my house..to work! mike, cn and nhatalie came over to do WR. quite fun la, but very tiring.
btw, my buggy com has finally been fixed, at the expanse of the com's hard disk being completely deleted. so now this com's like..empty. a hollow shell containing all that ready-to-be-used space. i'm just too lazy to plug in the external hard disk to get back all my files, lol.
i was reminded of a song which i heard today, Blind, by Lifehouse. very nice song (:

after all this time
i'd never thought we'd be here, never thought we'd be here
when my love for you is blind
but i couldnt make you see it, couldnt make you see it
that i loved you more than you'll ever know
when part of me died when i let you go

those are the lyrics of the chorus, cool lyrics (:

btw, why cant i italise my font, or change it's colour or size or post any pictures????

signing off

2009-07-06T11:56:00.005+08:00

ok! this blog hasnt been touched once since the previous post, one reason was bcos i was too sian and didnt have the mood to blog at all, haha. the next one is bcos of block tests.

anyway, during the long absence, block tests are finally over! (: yay! which means slack and go out and whatnot.

on fri, went out with claire, sw and chen to watch transformers (again) and played pool after that. i thought they wanted t try out snooker, oh well.. it was ANOTHER trip to plaza sing, we walked around til it got kinda late then i bounce-trained home with claire.

sat was slack day! got sonic and the black knight and more or less played from noon to night, haha! it's been such a long time since i gamed, woohoo! one of the reasons why i wanted this was cos Crush 40's finally doing the music for a sonic game again! the game's not bad, i thought it would be worse though. no point elaborating since most ppl wouldnt understand (:

(i cant put an image of the box art..)

sun was the day of et's concert. after service, i followed joe to get his flowers for her. first time i saw how someone could get a bouquet, haha! and i didnt know it'd be so ex. bcos of the bouquet thing, i made claire wait like...quite awhile since the bouquet was made on the spot. then i realised that we were keeping sw waiting too, haha! anyway, we went to the theatre after lunch. first time i saw et playing the piano, haha. and she's really good! all the beethoven pieces were nice, though i'm not sure if it's her interpretation or is it the piece itself that made liszt appear like a madman or sth, lol. there were a total of 3 duets et and her teacher played. i think the 3rd one was the best, and the 3rd one was the only one where et was playing the higher melody, hmm...

anyway, congrats to you on your concert! i'm sure you'll do greater things in future.

after the concert we cabbed to plaza sing (yet again!) to have dinner. ate at cafe cartel with their super nice and filling ribs. it was one of those rare opportunities when sw could have dinner with us. after that we bounce-trained home (again!) while sw got off at city hall.

today's a half slack half work day, gotta read up on chem..

this blog will now only have posts based on my willingness to blog, haha. let's see when's the next time i'll do this again

signing off

2009-06-23T16:48:00.004+08:00

heya! i'm back from the 4 day trip to malaysia. i didnt post abt leaving for it cos i was busy packing at the last minute, haha. anyway, i left on the 19th. the bus left church at abt 7 plus for the customs and whatnot. after that would be the estimated 6 hrs ride there on the promised 'luxury' bus. i was thinking abt those with double decked super nice leather chairs and a tv behind every chair kind of bus. but..no! it was just an extra roomy bus. haha! seriously! my bus had a small tv right in front and was showing transporter 3,i was half watching it and half listening to music. anyway, i cant really remember how long it took but we stopped at yong peng for awhile. then it was another dunno how many hours ride to some chinese restaurant for lunch, then it was chiong to kuantan. all in all, we left church at 7 plus, and reached the resort place at 4 plus!! that's a freaking 9 hrs journey!! the place is super nice with fountains here and there in the lobby and a mini grand piano in the middle of this platform surrounded by water. too bad i forgot to take a picture of it..while everyone was settling down in their rooms, gideon, gabriel, joe and i had to chiong set up all the instruments for our praise and worship sessions in this place called the hibiscus hall. after that it was more or less slack til sleep, haha.

throughout the entire 4 days i never once slept in cos i always had to wake up early to practice the songs for the praise and worship sessions. AND MY PHONE KEPT DYING ON ME!!!!!!! it died on the trip there, i charged it that night, and it dies the next evening..i seriously dunno wad's wrong with it, haha. joseph and i skipped the games thingy to mug in his room, it was successful mugging (: oh! on the second night we all went to this bar where i ordered this drink called virgin mary. IT TASTED TERRIBLE! it was some tomato thingy with i-dunno-wad with it and some weird chilli sauce on top of it! the drink was circulated and i got to see everyone's face of disgust when they drank it, haha! my phone was dead then so i couldnt take a picture of it.

anyway, on everyday there was a sermon and a discussion time with our discussion groups. the message was more or less on the theme of the retreat ''unity in mission'' the speaker was quite good, haha. oh, here are some of the pictures i managed to take

this was on one of the shirts i saw on sale, haha!

a close up on the super hard to see crab (can you see it?)

this was done with my footsteps! (: that's joe in the corner

it's a fish head, haha!

anyway, ever since i got back from malaysia, (the trip back was only 6 hours for some reason) my stomach's been all funny..like i feel like shitting a lot. i left for s'pore ytd at around 1 and reached at around 7 plus then i went out today for section outing. we just walked around tampines 1 and ate frolick's frozen yoghurt which was like the best!!

signing off

2009-06-12T00:56:00.004+08:00

this is useless, it's completely useless. you shouldnt let this continue. why did you even allow this to happen? this isnt to your benefit or to anyone else's. it's ilogical, irrational. it doesnt make sense, why cant you just give it up? it's pointless, you have only yourself to blame for this.

it's wad makes you human, you cant say for sure that it'll turn out to nothing, things may eventually work out and turn for the better. or it may just fade away and it'll all seem like it never really happened. it may take awhile but time will sort things out, hopefully..

how could you let sth like this bother you? dont you have better things to do then cloud your thoughts with stuff like this? arent there more important matters to look to? why should you even bother yourself with this? in the end wad do you stand to gain? nothing. you're only harming yourself, it really doesnt make sense..

you cant let go of it even if you wanted to, the truth is, you really want it but such a thought can be seen as immature; you want it but you cant get it, this sickening feeling. thats why you want it go away, but you cant..you dun want it to go away no matter how much it sucks. why must you feel this way? this necessary, contradictory but detrimental emotion. it really doesnt do any good does it? but wad can you do? it'll stay at the back of your mind 24/7, you dun wanna let go.

dun let go
you're hurting yourself
i dun care
it does you no good

and the conflict continues...
seriously, wad's wrong with you?

signing off

bad..

2009-05-30T13:02:00.003+08:00

this was one freaking bad week!
ok, maybe only so for the last few days. the first few days were fine. i got chosen to be student conductor, lol! not really sure wad i'll do, jialat, hope it all goes well. i cant even conduct! yu ding and weijie pres and vice pres siol! haha, congrats! i'm sure ya'll wil do fine (:

then came the freaking sore throat from philene's kickapoo! grr, but it's not her fault la, still..it sucks! it got worse on thurs then i was like in some slight bad mood that day la, then it got worse when sch ended. i think claire like sucked all my happiness la, haha, cos she was like really happy that she got to go home early while i grumbled at every single thing around me. like cutting my hair for the stupid block test yesterday, (i look terrible i tell you!) and the fact that i dont feel like studying for block test at all when i have to.

then yesterday, was the worse test day ever!! sore throat + nose problem + headache and lethargy. i used the entire tissue pack in gp alone, it was the first time i took two zyrtecs in one day which still had NO effect whatsoever, i dunno how many times i dozed off while doing both gp and mt. and both these exams were 3 hrs long! i used so much tissue that the teacher even asked me if i had a fever, haha! the nose problem wasnt so bad by the end of the mt paper, it became blocked instead of runny. then i met joe,nich and gideon at khatib macs to go to acsi for some stargazing thingy

they have like singapore's third largest telescope (according to them) the moon looked like some badly scarred face through their telescope. eveyone else's telescope was so hi-tech while gideon's one was just some small one. "i feel so inferior." lol. after spending enough time there, we went to my house to play for awhile, that was when i got a slight fever. but i'm fine now, haha. i only have a slight cough and blocked nose.

and i think robitussin is way better than strepsils haha, thanks claire (:

signing off

2009-05-20T22:57:00.004+08:00

hey, i suppose i should post sth haha. life's been pretty busy to the point of me not bothering to sit in front of the com and type this out unless i have pretty much nth better to do. i had my napfa 5 stations recently. i surprisingly passed every single station! i thought i would fail standing broad jump and sit & reach. i didnt even know i could still do sit-ups!

to floorball ppl, ya'll played well (: play better next year!

ok, my mind's seriously failing me now, cos i think of anything else to put, oh well, til next time

signing off

i'll just have to do it, no matter the weirdness

blah blah blah

2009-05-13T23:13:00.002+08:00

i'm supposed to be studying for the maths test tmr but i've done enough for tonight. i cant think right anymore so i'll just leave the rest to tmr (: anway, life's the usual nothing-too-interesting-to-mention routine. i recently thought of a new tune! but i'm not exactly sure wad kind of emotion or scene it conveys or wad i want it to convey. i've yet to properly sit down at the piano to try it out, havent even decided on the key yet! haha. and i'm not sure on how i'm gonna expand it.

speaking of compositions, i've STILL yet to finish this one piece that i started soo loong ago. i guess the 'inspiration' just comes when it does, or maybe it's the mood, i think i have problem with melodies, cos i believe that i tend to create complex melodies when i ususally like it simple.

anyway, today was the yjc sports meet thingy. every house did a cheer, i didnt know it was a competition! i was in the cheerleading team, but it's not exactly the stereotyped cheerleading, it's more like a dance or a display. i think it went pretty smoothly, no one fell during the stunt part. (: and we got 2nd place for both the cheer and the overall house performance, WHOO RODNEY!! Peirce's cheer was good so they got 1st for the cheer thing, haha, congrats (:

signing off

labour day

2009-05-02T10:27:00.003+08:00

hey, this post is on labour day cos i cant relly remember much of wad happened before. haha

woke up at 6! to report to sch at 7! for this syf band exchange thingy at MJC. the buses that took us there from sch were the same drivers, lol! zhe me qiao ah! so we reached MJ, and as expected looked nice, haha. the other schs there were MJ, JJ, PJ, Rivervalley high and Dunman High. all the bands had to present twice. we were the last for the first time, which sucked bigtime! i didnt keep my reed wet, so it was super hard to play! the second attempt was better (: anyway, all the other bands were good, JJ's woodwind runs were really clear, MJ had like the biggest band there which sounded good, Dunman's oboe sounded super nice. and only JJ was playing overture 1 like us, haha. it was the first time i heard overture 2 over there. i think they're both nice la, haha. just that no. 1 sounds simpler while no. 2 sounds more complex.

so after the exchange sheng wei and i went to change and eat while waiting for claire. in the end her dad fetched us to plaza sing (: there we walked around looking at some shops after getting the super selling fast tickets for wolverine! then we played pool. i, like always, sucked. haha. then we went to watch wolverine. not bad! they actually show how they coated his bones with adamantium. and lots of other freaky mutants. claire said gambit looked hot, cos of his hair, haha! after the movie sw had to leave, orh.. then claire and i went to eat at secret recipe. first time for me! the banna chocolate that claire brags abt really was good, lol. then we walked around plaza sing looking at gifts and weird stuffs in the shops that hadnt closed. we took the train to khatib to wait for her parents to send her home.

yup, a mostly well spent holiday (: hope i'll get another day like this (:

signing off

uneventful?

2009-04-26T23:26:00.002+08:00

my mind's totally not filled with anything right now, so everything here is totally random and withouy much prior thought. i finally found the time to finish toradora! yeah! now i'm focusing on clannad but the more i watch it, the sadder it seems cos i already know the ending, and the story's progressing towards it.

anyway, went for sch band prac on sat. met at northpoint macs for breakfast with flute section, haha. i finally got the recording of us playing Polovtsian Dances in the band room (: chionged my maths graph hw when i got home then went for church band prac. because of brandon's potential busy schedule, i had to play keyboard and nicholas had to play bass. which is very new for me, haha. i have no idea how bra does it. i dun think i'll be able to play well for the coming prayer meet, i can only hope (:

so after prac, it was ben's idea to watch 17 Again. which was, to me, watching 17 Again again haha. the first time was with claire, regina and sheng wei. then it was with, mo, nich, joe, daniel, ben and belle. i thought of not going at first but then, it sounded fun, and i wanted to laugh at the ned guy again lol. we caught the 9:25 show, which meant ppl would have trouble going home, daniel had to call his dad to fetch him while ben and belle caught the last train (i think) and mo, joe and i walked home.

slept for like almost 8 hrs that night. which is supposed to be a good thing but it makes me feel more tired tha usual -.-'' went straight home after service today to do my PI (yet again!) then i realised i had unfinished chem hw.

yup, that's my life, haha (:

signing off

PI!

2009-04-19T21:33:00.003+08:00

ok, PI sucks! i dunno how many times i've done it already, super sian! haha, but at least i'm proud of the latest one (: and i forsee the breaking down of this com in the near future, it's been problematic, i almost couldnt turn it on, with my PI doc inside! that like scared the hell out of me!

anyway, there was a band syf rehearsal at RP today, had to wake up like it was any other normal sch day, only it's a sunday! anyway, when we got there, we walked around almost the entire carpark looking for the percussions so that we can help carry the instruments, and we finally found them right outside where everyone else was, haha! some pictures were taken. prac today was..tiring. like, just a few phrases of playing and i cant hold my embouchure any more, seriously jialat. and the hall is like super echo-y. there's a full second of everyone's sound still going around the hall even if we played a super detatched note, maybe it wont be too bad when the hall's filled.

Flutes, Oboes and Bassoon (:

looks like some family photo, haha

after prac, we got on the bus, but.....the bus wouldnt work! we had to wait for the other bus to fetch the brasses back to sch, then come back and fetch us. everyone was super tired and super hungry, sheng wei got all pek cek because of his hunger, haha! and our bus driver - some china guy was also pek. so while on the bus, we talked, crapped and whatnot til the other bus came. once we arrived back in sch, you could tell everyone was really tired, haha. furthermore, the debrief wasnt exactly very brief, lol. after that a group of us went to eat, saw a lot of other band ppl around in food mall.

and now i have to study for phy test tmr! aiyo

signing off

tanjoubi!

2009-04-12T21:56:00.004+08:00

'sup! my birthday's coming up! so i went to celebrate it first with 'study group ppl' on saturday. there was actually some youth and bb gathering at my church first, so i met with claire first then one of the most interesting ways to meet up with jervis, haha. talked and crapped all the way to vivo and walked around while waiting for amanda.

we originally wanted to eat at some place called marché but there was this super long queue outside! and we were all pretty hungry, so we went to search for somewhere else around there to eat. claire and her 'touchscreen' lol!

we ended up in Earle's Swensens, (not sure wad's the diff though). we all ordered something everyone wanted and shared almost everything on the table, haha. i've never eaten that way before, should do it more often (: we talked and laughed and nonsensed all the way, i miss them.

anyway, went to watch Knowing after that. it's a really cool movie! and it's really really loud. the girl in the beginning was freaky, the whispering was freaky, and the accidents were damn cool. oh! there was this really funny part in the plane crash accident abt a guy on fire, jervis and i both laughed la! but i think we were the only ones who laughed. and claire was so freaked out that even the nice quiet parts where nothing happens, she still covers a ears and like closes her eyes. oh! and there was this guy sitting beside her that was WORSE than her!! he looks super freaked out la, and to add to that, he's a grown man! with a kid! claire and i were both laughing at him.

anyway, it was a really really fun night out (: we caught the last trains home. other pictures on claire's blog! haha! i, as usual dun have a habit of taking pictures even if it's better to.

(: you guys are the best! (:

signing off

the night

2009-04-07T22:48:00.000+08:00

hey, the busyness level is climbing. my gp teacher lectured us today abt the A level results of his previous batch and all the different possibilities. it made me realise that i've underestimated the toughness of jc life. it's really not easy, though it didnt feel as bad after awhile.

but i dunno why i'm not feeling too happy right now; it's like, i feel that there's something or some things i want, but i'm not exactly sure what it is or what they are. so i'm feeling kinda hollow right now. i have a few hunches on wad they could be, but most of them are trivial and dare i say it, kinda stupid. could it be that the summation of all these nonsense is the cause? or is it something else? or am i just tired and thinking too much? this sickening feeling, it goes away, and then it comes back again like a flame from spark ignited gas.
could it be the night? it usually does this to me, seriously, what in the world

signing off

april fool's

2009-04-03T00:41:00.003+08:00

osu! april fool's was on wednesday and guess wad? i actually got tricked, twice!

the first was the freakiest ever! i'm not gonna say much about it due to the fact that it may offend people for some reason that i've yet to come up with, but, ya. thanks band ppl for sharing your fun and creativity to freak me out, haha! i actually had fun. the second was after band prac when i had to go to church for the choir prac. rachel just came up to me told me to eat this cookie. it looked kinda nice, and she said she made it. so i was like, ok? then when i ate it, it tasted all minty, so i though it was some unique minty flavour thing which actually didnt taste too bad. but then rachel and friends started laughing and asked whether or not it was minty. so..it was then when i suspected that 'something's not right!' so i thought of the worst thing they would use to give the minty taste thingy. so i asked ''ya'll put toothpaste ah?'' then they laughed even more but said ''eh! why you no reaction one?'' haha! i dunno why i didnt feel disgusted there and then, oh well.

and now here i am, with my com finally working! late at night (as usual) catching up on things i've not been able to do. yup

signing off

thanks ming ching (: never knew you thought that of me

sometimes i feel i'm being pulled on both sides, sometimes i dun. i can only hope that one of it would go away

these few days

2009-03-24T23:23:00.001+08:00

hey, i've been catching up on negelcted and forgotten hw lately, haha. and i've been feeling really lethargic these past few days, i'm not sure is it because of the pe or the slightly later sleeping time? anyway, i'm unfit! i can run anymore! or at least, not as well as i used to. not that i could run very well before anyway. these few days have been..somewhat eventful, unexpected stuff happened but oh well, this is the unpredictability of life, haha, philosophical me (:

signing off

thanks jervis for all your jervis-ness, haha!

immaturity?

2009-03-22T22:14:00.004+08:00

it's not like i'm angry abt it or anything, i just feel like writing it down

we're all gonna be 17 this year, we entered primary sch and secondary sch at the same time. so why is there this vast gap, this crevice that seperates our mentalities? the difference is HUGE, and to think you're older than me by a few months? ok maybe months doesnt really factor.
we've all been on this planet, this world for more than 16 years, and that's a really long time. so why are ya'll so..nigh unacceptable. i'm trying not to justify using academics, but if we behave this way, why do you behave so different that it really is hard to believe that we're of the same age? have ya'll grown up? and it's not abt the matter of growing up too fast, i'm definitely not! i myself dun wanna grow up so fast, but this is really..too much. perhaps it's the environment in which you were brought up, but i have glanced upon that other side. that flicker of level-headedness, maybe, just maybe... if you dun see yourself for what you are, will you still change?

signing off

i dun pretend to be an expert but i know it's hard on you and what you've done is anything but easy, just give yourself some time. it's not gonna fade over night, but it will, eventually.

it has to

band camp

2009-03-19T08:03:00.002+08:00

came back from band camp last night! it was quite an enjoyable one, too bad it was only 1 day and 1 night. my group's name is Tchaikovsky! so the first thing we did after briefing and whatnot was combine. after combine was some mass game where we played the shoe game. we're supposed to take off one shoe and then run to the other side to take someone else's shoe and return it to that person. we also played dog and bone. the game organiser guy was funny, he was like

organiser: when i say neh-neh you say pok! neh-neh!

us: pok!

orgniser: neh-neh!

us:pok!

after eating dinner we were supposed to get ready for this night game, whish was the most fun game of all! they came up with this murder case of this composer guy called Alexander Borodin. we were given a piece of paper which was the police report, after that we are to go around the school to find the suspects listed in the report for questioning and to ultimately solve how and why Borodin died. one of the 'suspects' was Borodin himself, we can talk to him through a 'medium' but we never managed to question all of the suspects. super cool setting, but the real story was quite lame, haha. so during our search for the suspects, there are some people especially in the basketball court acting as ghosts! they were freaky man! we only got to shower after the night game ended which was abt 12? and we slept at around close to 2. and belive it or not, some people actually stayed up just to study! which was definitely controversial, haha.

the next day, had some mass sports games thingy which tired everyone out, followed by 2 hours of sectionals. i finally got to play the choice piece at my pace! when the woodwinds combined, claire and ben appeared behind the student conductor and started goofing around, pretending to conduct and everything, haha. after that was lunch followed by almost 3 hours of combine! everyone was really tired during combine la, but we still played. for me, everytime i didnt have to play, i would just sleep, haha. after that was some station to station game around level 1 of the sch.

in the end, Tchaikovsky was the highest scoring group! it's nice meeting them and talking to them during meal times. and our leader's damn funny, haha!

Tchaikovsky! (:

after being dismissed at abt 7.20, i had to go to church for choir practice then my phone died! i thought it was held at the sanctuary but it was actually in the luther hall. then the fatigue from the combine came back, haha! and today's my day off! yay! but i have to return colin his reed and maybe see how his band's been doing. oh well, til next time!

signing off

and it continues...

2009-03-17T16:39:00.002+08:00

hey! yj's cvd was on the 14th march. spent the entire evening before that day baking ghost shaped cookies. i'll just summarise wad happened on cvd. i was supposed to report at 7 but i woke up at 730 and got there by 8 something. went for sch band practice on from 9 til our performing time which was abt 12. saw ben's talentime performance, it was quite good but you could tell that ben's drumming was without any proper training cos his playing was kinda haphazard, haha. but it was still good and they won! congrats! haha. during sch band performance the scores kept flying away, and i had to stop playing to attempt to put the scores back in order just for it to fly away again! furthermore, i was sitting right in front! oh well.. after the performance i had to man the stall, which is almost equivalent to stoning as all the cookies were sold out by the time my shift started which was 1 to 3. so the only stuff left were the tikam thingy and the mummy dogs. met claire and her church ppl at the container classroom after my 'shift' to go to the haunted house. it would have been much scarier if i were at the front, but i was the last, so the ppl in front got a really good scare. it was also super super dark! the moment they closed the door i couldnt see anything and then all i heard were screams. then there was this one part where some ju-on-like ghost was standing there. then one of claire's church guy, jared, stopped there and said ''i very scared, i dunno whether fake or real one!'' haha. after that we went back to our stalls when it started raining. then madeline started shooting me with the water gun and we took turns shooting each other and other people.

after cvd, went for church band prac when i felt really sick, like feverish. but the next day the fever was gone but it was replaced with diarrhoea. i shitted til my stomach was concave, haha. there was also the choir thingy in church which clashed with youth service, and i was playing tt sunday! something just wasnt right, rather, many things just werent right.

now, i'm preparing for sch band camp, hope it'll be fun, and i hope i dun shit too much either. haha

signing off

no! don't die!

2009-03-09T19:10:00.002+08:00

yes! this blog's not dead yet! here's a new post to prove it!

ok, came back from the adventure camp in bintan. it had its fun times but also its suckish times.
the water there smells weird and tastes like blood, haha, but it's probably bcos of the pipes or something, and flushing became old-fashioned where we had to pour water into the toilet manually, good thing i didnt shit, haha (:
i was in the first 'wave' to get there. we climbed this mountain thingy, some parts were quite steep and we had to use a rope just to continue. it was kinda tiring at first, after awhile i sort of fell into this trance like state and wasnt axactly very aware of every single thing, just 'climb, climb, climb' but we eventually reached the top, yay! and then.....go back down! yup, only it's supposedly on the other side, so, trance like state round two, haha.
on the 2nd day we went dragon boating and played some teambuilding games. we had no choice on where we were rowing our dragon boat, cos there's a guy behind controlling our direction, so we were just going in circles for that hour or so.
we went to plant mangroves and paint the natives' house on the 3rd day, we played til all our hands and arms were covered in paint and had to clean it off with kerosene, the thing is, we were rushing for time to get back, so we had to sit in the bus for 45 min with kerosenified hands, haha. and i had no idea i lost my watch, until much later, i just didnt check on it til after we came back to the campsite and i realised it wasnt there, so now i'm watchless.

my ctg came to my house on sat to prepare for yj's cvd. my mum was there to ensure her precious baking equipment dun get destroyed or something. after that my dad addressed everyone of them, something abt whether or not they'll be coming again, that was sooo...awkward

and due to the graduated batch's good A level results, there;s gonna be half day tmr! yay!, it's supposed to be for the teachers, but oh well, that involves us normal students too (:

yup, i'll blog again soon (:

signing off

camp, and?

2009-02-25T17:28:00.004+08:00

hey! guess wad? the yj JC1 adventure camp's tmr! we'll be going to bintan. hope it'll be really fun and hope that my BACK will miraculously heal by tmr morning. i still have no idea how my back hurt, it just did during the weirdest of times: GP. maybe i stretched too much or something. it happened on mon and it hurt really bad that day til i couldnt walk properly, let alone carry my bag home. i had to ask ben to do it, haha, thanks ben! (: the doctor said it's some strain and gave medicine that does i-dunno-wad. it supposedly helps but i dun feel anything. oh well..
i hope i'll have time in future to blog more often, cos i have a feeling jc life is gonna be even more hectic than wad it is now after the camp.

signing off

your best friend's suffering, you can listen to her story, tell her wad you think, respond, try your best to empathise when you cant really do it, and pray for her. and then? then wad? isn't there anything else you can do? something to help, something to make her sufferings go away?
nothing...nothing at all
hope

whoa..new stuff!

2009-02-10T21:18:00.002+08:00

this blog's seriously gonna stagnate real soon, this may probably be like the last post in a long time, oh well..i foresee i'm gonna be real busy in time t come. ok, let's talk abt yj.

orientation week which was last week was really really fun! my Civics Tutor Group (CTG) 110 is the best! all my classmates are really great! we had all sorts of games and stuff during the 5 days which really bonded us really really close together. there was some couple mass dance thingy on the 2nd day which is really fun to do, haha. all of us had to pair up with a person from the opposite gender and dance to this two part music. the first is candy man and the other is some 'ai yai yai' song, haha. on the 4th day we did this game like amazing race only it's around yishun. we had to walk from yishun stadium all the way to somewhere around yishun park! anyway we walked a lot and cheered a lot (: on the last day there was this jam & hop thingy at night together with some bbq stuff where we got all hyper while the bands played. even though i didnt know every song i still hypered and jumped til my stomach hurt, lol. but one uf my classmates got called by cj who said she got accepted since she appealed there. and due to some other factors despite being so close with us and yj she chose to go anyway. it's really sad, i'm sure all of us were. but we got to hang out again on sunday. we played pool and watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. it's a freaking 3 hour long show abt the guy's life! the story's not bad but it's not recommended for ppl who may not be able to endure 3 hours of the almost documentary-like show.

so now in yj we're starting on lectures and whatnot. but i'm afraid i may not be disciplined enough to study and do what needs to be done everyday in order to survive the rigours of jc life. hais..i can only pray and trust in God's guidance and His plan for me. (:
ok! that's abt it (:

signing off

2009-01-28T13:44:00.002+08:00

hey! it's the third day of chinese new year.

ok, i'll start with the first day. went to this hotel for brunch in this chinese restaurant with relatives from my dad's side. all the young kids look older, as in, they can talk and respond, haha, it makes me feel slightly older than before, then again. everyone's older now, haha. we were divided into 4 tables, and all the 3rd generation cousins sat in one. there was some trouble placing the orders for the food cos we didnt know how much we wanted. in the end our table had the most number of plates of food, haha! the shrimp wrapped in the rice flour dough thingy kept on coming we didnt know how much we ordered, in the end there were like 4 plates of it? after eating, my family and i left for the terrace house of my mum's-side uncle. where everyone else from my mum's side would also gather. apparently we were the first to arrive, and after eating so much we all felt tired but i already slept in the car on the way there so i was wide awake watching some show that didnt make much sense to me, i was so glad when my relatives came, at least there's someone else to talk to, haha. one of my cousins just got into rgs so it was interesting to find out wad she thought of it and how she's doing, and she looks way older than before, haha. but i pretty much stoned there, except for going to one of my uncle's neighbours to watch the partial solar eclipse. they have this box with some lens thing that reflects the image onto the screen on one side of the box, there we can see some crescent shaped thing, but it was so cloudy it was hardly visible. we then left in the evening and went home. i bet with rachel that i'd get more hong bao money than her, damn! i lost, haha. it's ok, it's not that bad, lol.

went out with my family minus gideon to sentosa on the second day to see the flowers there, haha. poor gideon had work on that day. the thing is, i was kinda tired that day, haha. when we got to vivo to take the monorail, there was this large queue. all of them were trying to get to sentosa too! so we eventually got to sentosa and took pictures here and there. there were all sorts of stuff made using flowers. i'll upload it if i feel like it (: we played with a snapple bottle cap's 'safety button'. we just kept pushing it until it makes a lot of noise, haha. sat on the tiger sky tower for the first time, haha. the ride was really interesting. we ate the new zealand ice cream, it's damn nice!! after that we left and i was quite tired.

and today's the third day, nothing much has happened so..that's that. haha

signing off

quick update

2009-01-20T22:14:00.003+08:00

hey, last sat i went for the first lesson of the bunka japanese language school thingy with yi chen. the teacher's a japanese and speaks in that accent. i found it so cool i was chuckling to myself in the beginning but i eventually got used to his accent. he asked each one of us how he can address us, and he says it in japanese and then writes it down in katakana on the name list. he introduced to us the three different ways of japanese characters, hiragana, katakana and kanji. during the lesson, i realised i cant just understand japanese, i have to learn how to speak in their accent. otherwise it'll be the same as foreigners speaking english in their own accent or something like that. the 3 hr lesson was good. though i think should have went for the break like everyone else, cos i found it increasingly difficult to understand stuff later in the lesson, haha. i was just so intent on perfecting my hiragana writing. call me enthu, lol.

after the lesson, i had to rush back to church for band prac. haiz..guess i'll have to be late every sat band prac until the classes stop around maybe march?

sunday, after service i went to play frisbee and soccer. nelson and i were late cos i was..guiding him on how to play the piano, haha. the frisbee game was fun, it was something like rugby like it h ad to be caught past a certain point to score. since we were playing at the field beside yishun polyclinic, the frisbee went to the road many times. one time, it went too far out and cars were coming, so we could only stand there and hope the frisbee doesnt get destroyed. one taxi looked like it was gonna run over it. that's when mo said ''if the frisbee 'pok' i'll laugh.'' immediately after he said that, the taxi ran over it with a 'pok' sound! and both of us started laughing!
after that we played soccer, it was the first time i found soccer to be fun! lol

pretty much nothing happened on monday and today. tmr is claire's friend's seoul garden thingy, so we're going there for lunch. haha, k til next time!

signing off

2009-01-13T20:50:00.002+08:00

hey! here's my O level results

L1R4: 11
L1R5:14

Eng: B3
Comb. Human. : A2
Maths: A2
A Maths: B3
Phy: B3
Chem: B3
Music: A1
Mother Tongue Chinese: C6

all in all, not bad la. haha. thank you Lord for the satisfactory results! (: the combine human was totally unexpected, thought i would do terribly seeing as my score for ss in the two prelims were 11/50 and 9/50 haha. my eng, maths and sciences was kinda disappointing though, i should have done better in them. haha. i'm thinking of going to sajc? but it's kinda unlikely, haha so chances are it'll be yjc. the thing is, there are 12 choices i'm supposed to fill in, wad in the world am i supposed to put for the other 10 choices?! since i wanna go to a jc which has A level music, there are only 5 schools i know which do offer the subject, rjc, njc, vjc, sajc and yjc. since rj, nj and vj is WAY OUT, i'm left with sa and yj. hope i can get to sa somehow! for some reason it's..appealing to me, haha. but i'm not sure how the subject combinations are like, so i'm going there tmr. apparently there's an open house. hope i can find out more there, yup haha

signing off

2009-01-11T21:11:00.004+08:00

heya! havent blogged for quite awhile, haha oh well..
i've been going to different open houses these few days, i need to find out more abt my potential future education. i've been to YJC's, SP's, NYP's and NP's. all the open houses i've been to have really made me realise how much effort the people behind it all put in, and..that would be a lot, haha. this week's been full of stuff, it seems really long. like last sunday seems really long ago.

went to claire's house on tue to do some lettuce slicing and prawn de-shelling. the prawn juice made a part of my left pointer finger itch and grow some small lumps..weird.. but it went away after awhile, haha! we then went to see kai ting's new house which is damn luxurious and posh and whatnot, i dun think i'll feel very comfortable if i ever own a house like that, haha.
went to ntu and smu together with claire and jervis and claire's mum on wed. just to find out a little more abt the life there. claire's mum drove us all around, so nice of her (: the trip really made me see uni life differently. we went to ntu cos claire's cousin studies there and he showed us around, at smu we were more or less fooling around and behaving like 12 year olds or something, haha!
on thur, claire and jervis came over to my place to look through all the poly courses but we were kinda tired to get too much done, and then claire and i went to celebrate yi chen's birthday at Seoul Garden at marina square (was it?) we ate til we couldnt eat anymore, at least, i did. we put a bowl of chocolate on top of the soup bowl and used it like chocolate fondue for dessert (: then we started playing with the leftovers, adding all sorts of nonsense in the soup bowl like egg shells and ice-cream haha. talked with claire abt stuff on the train during the trip back, i just dunno wad to think
on friday, jervis, claire and jordan and i went to the different open houses mentioned earlier except for NP. though jervis didnt go for NYP's. haha, i dunno wad to say for the open houses.
sat was supposed to be a no outing day but claire suddenly called and suggested going to NP, haha, so we went and her mum fetched us there. turns out jervis was already there having fun with his red camp ppl. so claire and i walked around NP for awhile. while we were eating, gideon messaged me that that church band prac was at 6, which i forgot! ( i thought it was 7). so i took a cab with claire, gideon paid though, didnt have any money, oops.. once we reached church, claire took off and i had band prac.
today, woke up at 6 to run at yishun stadium before playing for service, it's been quite awhile since i exercised, haha. the playing was kinda screwy but mo said no one would hear the bass so no one would know the mistakes, oh well.. gideon, joe, mo and nic and myself went to the city area guitar shops after service, i wanted to get a new bass bag and a strap. (man..i feel bad for making gideon pay for it, i'll pay you back someday!) ate at the teppan yaki thingy place for dinner, that's a first for me! food's not bad, but the price.....!!!

well, that's all for the week, tmr's the results-for-o-level day!! i'm concerned..i dunno wad to expect. haha, hope all goes well..

signing off

2009-01-04T18:22:00.001+08:00

hey! late post of 2009! k, 2008 was really unique, never in my life have i ever experienced something like it. i've heard from people that your O level year would seem pretty fast, well..not for me! it was LONG! studying almost everyday with groups of people and eventually sticking with one (the best group ever!) stuff that i recalled recently seemed so far away despite logic telling me that it happened in 2008.

ah...2008 the year that changed me more than any other year has so far. should i go back two years into the past to talk to myself, i doubt that me would believe that he would eventually become like that. i've had so many new experiences it's really amazing how one year can do something like that. thanks to every single one of you who have made 2008 a truly unique one. well..cant think of anything else to say for now. hope 2009 will be as good, if not better than 2008 (:

signing off

2008-12-26T22:07:00.012+08:00

hihi! these few days have been kinda busy.

let's start with 23 dec

went to watch a movie ''Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist'' with claire and jervis. before that, we walked around taka to do christmas shopping. amanda was working there. some weird stuff happened with her work but in the end she could join us for the movie, yay! (: met a number of people from our school working in taka too, everyone's like WORKING. we walked into the theatre abt 10 min late, thus we missed the beginning of the show. the show's funny and sick, no wonder it's rated NC-16, but it's still a nice romance comedy show. after the movie, jervis and claire both went to meet their respective 'garden' person. so i stayed with amanda in taka to continue my shopping. amanda decided to buy lingerie for a couple of her friends so we went to this lingerie shop which was packed like crazy!! amanda wanted to try some on so i spent a good time waiting. then we went after much comtemplation and procrastination to causeway to continue our shopping. after finally settling on jervis's gift we went home (:

24 dec, nothin much really. haha, just wrapped the presents from the day before. attended a concert by jurong christian church in the evening and got a large influx of 'merry christmas' messages near midnight

25 dec (: (: attended church's christmas service and received some cards and gifts. some of the cards were very nice (: after that was a party with my relatives held at home. my same-aged-same-month cousins and i really did some catching up. there's even a plan for an outing, haha. i left for claire's party with jervis after that. we finally saw claire's new much-bragged-about middle room that's not in the middle of the house, haha. we ate, played taboo, murderer, heart attack card thingy, blackjack. and took a couple of pictures. after most of us have gone home, claire's church friend started telling us ghost stories, haha, pretty freaky. we stayed all the way til 2am, good thing claire's dad was nice enough to drive us all back (: amanda then told me that she gave me another gift from the one she was suuposed to give me, lol. oh well, i'll get it the next time we meet, hopefully sometime soon (:

26 dec, watched Twilight in the morning with gideon, joseph, lionel and david. not a bad movie, funny at times. then again i've never read the book, so i suppose i would say it would be bad if i ever did read it? waited for gideon's car to finish it's polishing before reaching school for band's POP (passing-out parade) 50 min late with minette. though the whole thingy started like almost an hour and a half later than the designated time. so, the usual speeches and gifts and whatnot. we had a great time chatting with our section while eating pizza (:

and..that's it for now. it's kinda late (for me it is) right now, 5 min pass 12. with only less than 6 hrs of sleep, i cant think very clearly right now, haha

signing off

2008-12-22T09:17:00.007+08:00

"Mountain Of God"

Thought that I was all alone

Broken and afraid

But You were there with me

Yes, You were there with me

And I didn't even know

That I had lost my way

But You were there with me

Yes, You were there with me

'Til You opened up my eyes I never knew

That I couldn't ever make it without You

Even though the journey's long

And I know the road is hard

Well, the One who's gone before me

He will help me carry on

After all that I've been through

Now I realize the truth

That I must go through the valley

To stand upon the mountain of God

As I travel on the road

That You have lead me down

You are here with me

Yes, You are here with me

I have need for nothing more

Oh, now that I have found

That You are here with me

Yes, You are here with me

I confess from time to time I lose my way

But You are always there To bring me back again

Sometimes I think of where it is I've come from

And the things I've left behind

But of all I've had, what I possessed

Nothing can quite compare

With what's in front of me

Even though the journey's long

And i know the road is hard

Well the One who's gone before me

He will help me carry on

After all that I've been through

Now I realise the truth

That I must go through the valley

To stand upon the mountain

Yes I must go through the valley

To stand upon the mountain

Yes I must go through the valley

To stand upon the mountain

Thought that i was all alone

Broken and afraid

But you are here with me

Yes You are here with me

wassup! i just came back from YCCL Youth Camp 2008 Exodus. it's a moving camp, meaning we go to a different place each day. the activities there are supposed to simulate the we as the israelites being brought out of egypt. the theme for the camp is mainly based upon the book of exodus. the theme verses are Exodus 13:17-21. we were seperated into six groups, each named after one of the 12 tribes of the israelites. my group's name is Simeon (: on the first day after playing ice breakers in church we set off for Sentosa.where the israelites are still in egypt. we played games that simulated the 10 plagues but not one group managed to complete all of it, haha. we were also to build pillars of clouds and fire using balloons, lol. we spent the night on the sapphire pavillion where it was all sandy and whatnot. we went to Camp Christine on the second day after playing some beach games. this is when the israelites have escaped egypt. we played some water games there and then attempted to build kites, haha. all the group leaders were secretly called away to build the golden calf and then to present a skit abt it's construction and destruction. the shower facilities there are limited but, oh well. the third day was the most fun. we went to sembawang park to play laser quest. it's some gun thingy that simulates real life shooting at each other using light and sensors on the guns. it's when the israelites were fighting a battle with some other people, haha. after the laser quest is something like the amazing race. we were given a piece of paper with clues and we have to walk/run to those places. the last station would be at yishun town sec (aka the Promise Land) lol. we played another water game there, a really fun one, haha. on the last day all the groups are to present a skit on a modernised version of wad happened after exodus. each group was to present certain verses. my group's was Numbers 14. cant remember the verses, haha.

all in all, a really fun camp. i definitely laughed much more in this camp than last year's. the camp song this year is called Mountain of God. it's so meaningful (: pictures some other time when i can get more of them.

signing off

2008-12-17T20:25:00.004+08:00

hey there! i've got some stuff to say.

went to claire's confirmation on sunday with jervis, amanda, sheryl, ming shuang, tessa, jolene and kai ting. we reached her church late! well, i was there first but everyone came late so we took a cab there while amanda called jordan for directions. the entire upstairs was PACKED. we had to sit on these chairs that were put there all the way at the back. i was nigh clueless as to wad was happening seeing as we can see almost nothing until claire told me later that the really long song was the part when they were all getting confirmed, haha. their confirmation thingy afterwards is SO unlike my church's. they had a skit put up by a few parents then they showed the video that claire and her friend erica made, while having a buffet dinner. the whole atmosphere is like lively and somewhat frivolous while my confirmation was somewhat 'like-that-lor'-ish. after the dinner they played some music and a lot of people started dancing. we all went high. well, most of us. and there was this super high guy who wanted to dance with all the girls. amanda claims he stays near her, haha! we took lots of pictures, had a great time. jervis, amanda and i left first and had a lift from claire's dad to causeway. we stayed at toastbox and chatted for awhile before going home (: (no pictures, see it at claire's blog)

ok this is random but i saw something funny on monday in the yishun bus interchange

dangerous plants! haha

let's talk about today now! today's the day my mum's eldercare centre holds its christmas celebration. i helped by playing the piano accompaniment while my aunt sang christmas songs. they were all in chinese so the elderly sang along. after that was some guitar performance by some guy. it's just too bad that i dun know him. next is me again! haha, playing the piano part for State of Grace while lester played the e guitar part. it went mostly ok i suppose since no one noticed the many minor mistakes i made. after that was claire and her group's dance performance. nice performance, i really enjoyed watching it. though there was a slight mistake it was still fine on the whole. there were refreshments after the program but no drinks! but it's ok since we took water from the fridge, haha. all of them are gonna dance for some other church again tmr, all the best! and thanks, ya'll for helping out! (:

some of them left first then the rest of us - sheryl, tessa, claire - went to watch Bolt. this would be my second time watching it. the movie's still funny and good. this time i laughed at parts that i didnt laugh at the first time i watched it. the overdose of sprite made my stomach all funny. gee.. i really wonder who was the one who didnt help me in drinking it! lol. and now i'm home packing for Youth Camp '08. hope it'll be great it'll end on the 21st. well, til next time people!

signing off

2008-12-13T22:15:00.004+08:00

hiya! ok, i went to watch Bolt yesterday with my brothers. good show(: the pigeons are damn funny with their twitchy heads, haha! it's unique in a way that it's not such a cliche setting for the story though it may appear so in the beginning.

and.. THE BASS THAT'S BEEN ORDERED HAS FINALLY ARRIVED! the ErnieBall Musicman Bongo 6. i was supposed to collect it with gideon today, but.. i woke up too late and what with his busy schedule and plans for the morning and the fact that the store closes at 3 made it such that he went to get it himself. I wanted to go too!! and he even got the honour of opening the cardboard box and unwrapping the plastic it was wrapped in not that he made a big deal out of it. so while he got it and settled everything, claire came over desperately seeking help in her confirmation video, haha. it was so nice of her to bring these raisin bread thingys. she wanted to make copies of the video for her confirmation buddies. though there were a few minor mistakes and a major one and our lethargy, we managed to do it. but i doubt many of them will realise what we went through to make it possible not that it was really hard work or anything. then, a travel-weary gideon came home carrying with him the heavy case while we were in the midst of things and i tried the bongo out. it feels so different! it's slightly heavier and my previous one and the sound is so clear! the colour looks different from the ones i saw from the net though, oh well.

it says 'musicman' (:

aaanyway, i went to houston's 21st birthday party after that. after eating the buffet dinner there was this game that daniel came up with. the first one was something like the pyramid game but i never watched it so i cant testify as to whether or not it is really similar to it. though it's a bit like taboo. i left with nelson when the game just began to collect the cake from safra. there was this lady who had trouble saying 'candles' though i realised after a moment wad she was saying, i was too stoney to tell the clueless nelson wad she was actually saying. nelson was like ''huh? wad are you talking about?'' and the lady was like ''how many cater?'' haha!! when we came back they were playing some game about houston's personal past. hermann and daniel then came out and played on their guitars and sang a song they composed specially for houston, damn cool and nice!and now it's getting late, that's all for now (:

signing off

2008-12-10T21:45:00.002+08:00

hey, i've been feeling sick these few days. i've experienced this before, i feel tired, i feel like more blood goes to my head even when i'm upright and sometimes my appetite's not there. but, i dun have a fever, haha, i've checked. though my throat's not entirely fine - some minor irritation.

i havent been doing things worth mentioning these days, i spend most of the day at home but for some reason, i always have something to do. haha. heh, cant think of anything else to say for now, oh well, gonna read my book now (: til next time

signing off

2008-12-07T22:40:00.004+08:00

ok, just came back from eating at swensens at changi airport with my whole family. there's now hardly a time when all my family members are free at the same time. the reason for eating there is so that my dad could just go to work after eating, haha. super full! even after an hour. my periodical burps are still there. ate this super nice dessert! it's apple crumble on a hot pan. the lady poured apple with caramel and some butterscotch cream and there's ice-cream on top of the apple crumble. we talked and laughed so much (: i laughed so hard my stomach hurt i got 'shot'

doesnt it just make your mouth water? (:

popped by my aunt's place to pass her the discs of the shows she tasked me to record during her trip to taiwan (some ancient china show thingy) haha. i suppose they had fun, didnt really talk to them since i was waiting downstairs, haha!

AND, i can feel my health going away from me. i'm starting to feel the early symptoms of sore throat. just great!.. it'll probably go together with a fever. once the sore throat and the fever subsides, i'll have to deal with the cough and phlegm.. i'll probably wake up in the middle of the night feeling all feverish or something and having nightmares. *shudder* just great.. hope it doesnt stay for too long

signing off

if only i could control it

but i cant

guess i'll have no choice but to live with it

2008-12-04T11:13:00.009+08:00

ok, so i went shopping with claire and jervis yesterday at causeway. we went to eat lunch at yoshinoya with amanda first before her work . amanda as usual ate very little and declared that she was full, haha! we went to get clothes after that. it was more about getting clothes for me instead of the other two. so..after much trying out and stuff - jervis and i were trying on some clothes while claire was busy taking all the pictures - i got a shirt. we went to metro after that and i found a really nice shirt, so i got it too, haha.

couldnt resist not putting this one up. it's so damn funny it makes me laugh everytime i see it, haha!

we went to watch City of Ember later. nice show (: though there were a few unexplained things, but still, very interesting, funny at times and with some gadgety stuff. after the movie, we had to go to claire's house to collect the receipt for the musical we were gonna watch later since she forgot to bring it with her, lol. we ate the stuff she got from a baking lesson thingy the day before. we then left for the musical, held at the University Cultural Centre. reached there minutes before it started.

it's a musical ''about teens, for teens, by teens''

nice musical (: they had nice music and singing and choreography, there was a live band of musicians behind the background thingy and through this little window you can see the conductor haha. it was really funny too. espicially the bushy hair guy whom claire went ''omghe lookslikechad!'' haha!!

we were all pretty much cheerful after it ended, then claire got all emo and spent the majority of the trip back talking on the phone while jervis was all high and was also talking on the phone. we wanted to eat before going home but jervis couldnt go home too late so we didnt eat out in the end. i was so hungry my stomach started to ache, haha. but i ate some stuff at home.

all in all, a fun day spent with two of the best friends i've ever had. pictures of the clothes can be found in jervis's and claire's blogs, i think, that is, if you really wanna see it. haha

you guys are the best! (:

signing off

2008-12-01T22:54:00.005+08:00

heya! well, the mood of christmas never came to me til yesterday when i was helping to put up the christmas tree in my house. haha, the tree shrinks every year, and everytime i look at it, i feel all christmasy.

haha! i had a good laugh when i first saw this

ahh... christmas. whenever i think about it, there's always a small sense of melancholy. i start reflecting upon the whole year, about the things i'll miss, about the things i've had. for some reason, i dun think much about the things to come, even if i should. cos to me, christmas means the end of the year. i dun think much about the festivities, though now that i think about it, i really look forward to it, haha. (: still, i think about my life for this year, and i wonder if i'm ever gonna get a year as special as this. this year would be what i would consider the best one so far(: ok, maybe it's a bit too early to be talking about year reflections. i'll save it for another post, when it's closer to the new year. but for now.. CHRISTMAS IS COMING (and the melodies of carols together with the images of the christmas-exclusive decorations fill my head)

these one-of-a-kind feelings, it could only be christmas (:

remember?

2008-11-27T21:29:00.002+08:00

rememberance, reminiscence, recollection, repetition of events in your head. all made possible by memories. memories make us. without them, we're just living husks, without identity, without essence. a fictional character described memories as ''the private assortment of images, fears, loves, regrets.'' we often remember certain events in our lives, reminisce the actions taken then and recall our feelings during those points in time. those both impactful and mundane. know the past to better build a future. all of us have fond memories we'd like to share, or painful memories we bury, ever hesitant to recover it. treasure them! for it is these memories, each one different, each a lesson of its own, that gives us individuality and makes each and every one of us, truly, unique (:

2008-11-24T20:33:00.004+08:00

hey! so i went to play lan at parody centre with, yi chen, wen jie, nick lim, hao sen, hao khai, kang yu, bryan, jun han and yi chen's neighbour. we played the usual cs and dota, and for a really short while, call of duty (: yi chen, wen jie, hao sen and myself were supposed to go to the japanese language school to sign up for the lessons, BUT, hao sen didnt bring his money and wen jie said that he's broke. since we're gonna go there again sometime nxt week, i didnt go there today.

some people were talking about jobs today, it made me wonder whether or not i should get one myself, but for now, i dun have any intention to get one, haha

the weather's so WARM! or is it just the ventilation of my house? in any case, just sitting in front of the computer typing this out is making me all sticky. oh well..

it's there and then it's not

these strange fluctuations

how strange...

2008-11-22T23:27:00.006+08:00

tagged by claire

10 weird facts about myself (oh dear..)

1) at least one of my nostrils is blocked or partially blocked for the whole day
2) i subconsciously rub my face with my hand
3) if i cant be bothered to answer someone's question or even listen to it, i'll answer with ''i dunno''
4) i use ''chicken'' as an exclamation
5) i'll repeatedly hum some random tune in my head if i'm anxious
6) i usually 'stone' after i eat a meal
7) i like looking at the sky
8) the weather sometimes affects my mood
9) i make full use of the condensate from cold drinks when i eat out
10) i'm afraid of larger insects

A: You like to drink
B: You like people
C: You are really silly
D: You like to eat
E: You like to play with dogs
F: You are dead sexy
G: You never let people tell you what to do
H: You have good personality and good looks
I: Easy to be with
J: People adore you
K: You are wild and crazy
L: Everyone loves you
M: Best kisses ever
N: Best BF/GF anyone could ask for
O: Easy to fall in love with
P: You are popular with all types of people
Q: You are a tomboy
R: You are loyal to those you love
S: Crazy
T: Awesome kisses
U: You really like to chill
V: Awesome in bed
W: You are very broad-minded
X: You love sports
Y: Best BF/GF anyone could ask for
Z: Always ready

my name:

M: Best kisses ever
A: You like to drink

J: People adore you
U: You really like to chill
N: Best BF/GF anyone could ask for
R: You are loyal to those you love
E: You like to play with dogs
N: Best BF/GF anyone could ask for

G: You never let people tell you what to do
A: You like to drink
M: Best kisses ever
A: You like to drink
L: Everyone loves you
I: Easy to be with
E: You like to play with dogs
L: Everyone loves you

ok! how interesting! haha, anyway. played for service today.(why the heck does it say saturday?) i havent played for awhile so my fingers hurt, ouch. oh well, there really isnt anything else to say for now, so i'll just leave it as that, haha

signing off

2008-11-21T23:02:00.007+08:00

hey

well, didnt do much today. almost the entire day was spent feeling lethargic. haha, how weird. i started on memorising the first 10 hiragana, cool! used like more than an entire page trying to correct my own writing with reference to this book that my mum used to use.

anyway, went out to attempt to play basketball. ended up having fun laughing at ben's expressions instead of playing due to my cluelessness as to what to do. i'm just not interested in it, haha, not even sure why i went. but it was fun sometimes (:

spent the rest of the day playing. i feel like i'm getting addicted to the op for the second season of gundam 00, haha

signing off

the night comes once again

with the familiar insecurity

will it always be like this?

2008-11-20T09:36:00.004+08:00

hey there!

yesterday was another almost-all-day-out day. slacked at home in the morning then left for city hall to follow gideon to get some tuner and stuff, BUT.. it was raining...real heavy. so we had to spend some time walking around raffles city to wait out the rain. we went to this place called Ochaha and ordered this drink called ochacha latte. it's green tea with milk! maybe i'm just ignorant or something but i find that quite unique, haha. it didnt taste bad.

i didnt really have an appetite to eat anything for awhile after drinking it. ooh.. wonder wad that must mean, haha

anyway, after getting the stuff, we went back to church for band prac. gideon had to leave earlier for work so we jammed awhile after he left then went for supper. tried the mega mac, just the burger though. i was afraid that i couldnt finish the meal. haha, we then waited at the train platform for ben to shit before going home. reached home quite late, haha

and today's my parent's anniversary. Happy Anniversary to my parents! you've accomplished 26 years of marriage! and it'll be longer than that in time to come, haha. kk, thats all for now

signing off

2008-11-18T22:52:00.002+08:00

ok! here's hopefully the revival of this forsaken blog! this is gam btw. thanks to the previous post and its writer (: i've decided to do something to this blog again after like, damn long. haha. (that really was my friend's doing btw) hello blog! sashiburi!

anyway, went to cineleisure's kbox today with claire jervis and amanda. linkin park still causes my voice to become temporarily strange and abnormal. we spent more time watching the MVs than singing for some songs, haha. we didnt manage to finish all the chosen songs though. after that we ate at subway. jervis and i followed amanda to walk all over bugis street to look for her polo tee while claire went of to pasir ris for free dinner, lol. followed amanda to cwp after a failed attempt at bugis street. sat for tea after finding her tee (hey! sounds funny!) on the whole, a fun day! thanks you guys! (:

thats all for now, hope i wont lose interest in blogging too soon, otherwise it'll look too weird

signing off

NEW POST AFTER SO LONG

2008-11-12T13:12:00.002+08:00

hello!!
gam's friend here. :DDDD

since game totally ignored this wonderful blog of his,
i shall help him revive it. (even tho it's only ONE pathetic post)
but still, my heart cannot bear to see this blog rot and die.
hmph..

and he wants to delete it.
aww poor blog.

anyways, so GAM is in yichen's house right now..
just finish eating yichen's ribs. awesome! i must say..
and it comes with homemade bbq sauce and beer. carlsberg too.

haha, gam thinks this is stupid.
ITS NOT.

:DDD

lisyeninh tyo some oboe concerto now.
i'm not a fan of oboes tho.
savaphones are much better :D

THIS KEYBOARD IS GIVING MY PROBLEMS.

kk. samuel just entered the room. hehe.
he's a funny guy.
good guy
funny.
:)))

he said i type funny two times.
i said i know.
he just sighed.
and said 'you want to read out and then i type?'
and he sighed again.
SIGHH.

haha okay this is CRAP./

GAM YOU BETTER THANK ME (:
I'M DOING YOU A FAVOR.

because this keyboard SUCKS.
haha.
its SWTUPD.

2008-06-13T00:20:00.002+08:00

oh, hi.

ok, i know i've not been to this site for......awhile. haha, since i just don't feel like sleeping now (despite my sleepiness..), i've decided to just blog, how about that?

well, i'll just talk about today, or rather, yesterday. went out all the way to some place near dhoby ghaut to play lan, we played cs and dota. (the ''rambo'' tactic doesn't work anymore!!) but it was quite enjoyable actually (: even if i lost alot. we then ate at yoshinoya, (i wonder if this is even worth mentioning, haha). got some stuff for my bro, went home to kill some time then went out again to watch Kung Fu Panda with church ppl! it was quite funny! music's not bad either.

and that's all for today, maybe i could write more if i were more alert, haha. but i'll just leave it as that for now. i may.. just make an effort to blog sometime soon. til then, hope for the best! (if anyone ever reads this in the first place)

signing off

2008-01-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

oh wow, i've not been to my own blog for quite awhile! how weird is that? haha.
anyway, had a couple of tests recently. havent done too badly, so far... and tml's some amaths sec3-recap test! went to bk to study for it. it turned out to be quite effective, for me at least. we did until our brains just shut off, so we started making fun of people. wenjie and i laughed real hard for no apparent reason after that. i even started coughing for laughing so much and hard! haha! well, moving on...(relating to church) tml's the final practice before our band plays for the february prayer meet, looking forward to that. haha.
well, who knows when i may blog again? i can only wonder, and i'm sure you can too!

wad you've just read is a slipshod consolidation of my thoughts! <<<<< sth random
that's all for now, haha.

signing off

2008-01-18T16:07:00.000+08:00

DT CONERT ROCKED!! WOOHOO!! haha, last night, me, my two bros, their fren and derrick went to watch their show at Fort Canning Park. the show started at 8 and ended at around 11. dt came at like 5 min before 8 and left at abt 3 min after, professional seh...haha! since it was free standing we stood near the stage and the speakers were quite near us, haha! could hear myung's bass so clearly! though it rained twice, the crowd remained high and rocked and screamed and cheered!! by the end of it we were quite wet, and got home by cab. yay! i wanna go to another dt concert! haha, but tts very very unlikely, at least, if we're talking abt this year. tts all for now. YAY! DREAM THEATER!!

signing off

2008-01-16T17:56:00.000+08:00

i realised something; i've not blogged for quite some time now. simply because, i dun know wad to blog abt, haha. nothing too big has happened recently. well, yesterday, sch band gave us the pieces we need to play for cny, A Legend from Yao and Chinese Spring Overture. i think ming ching loves these pieces, i dunno, just a feeling. these pieces need work! and i'm not sure if i'm even free enough for them.. to colin and wesley if you're reading this: you need to work on them! haha, sounds demanding. oh well... tts all for now, i guess i'm too tired to be excited for tml's dt concert, haha. i'll just be studying now.

signing off

2008-01-08T19:30:00.000+08:00

haha, finally got some songs on the blog. all by Dream Theater, why? cos i'm i'm a fan of theirs! if you want you can listen to them, you should listen to In The Name of God before The Root of All Evil cos the last note for In The Name of God is the first note for Root of All Evil, pretty cool huh? yay!! i'll be going to dt's concert on 17 jan!! haha, well thats all for now.

signing off

2008-01-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

''Happy New Year'' yup, new year's day. but, the way i see it, it's nothing too happy. haha. wad with school starting and all tt? adding to that is the all infamous 'O's! oh well... wad will come, will come. and we will have to face it when it does. ooohh.. tts sounds so philosophical. sad but true.. well... here comes another year of school, hopefully i wont stay melancholic for too long. haha

signing off

2007-12-25T11:57:00.000+08:00

well, first things first. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! it's tt time of the year again, the festive season when we celebrate the birth of Christ. haha

now, abt youth camp, what can i say? haha, fun! we were differentiated into six groups called Tribes.

Ruach - Wind
Hayil - Power
Mayim - Water
Herev - Sword
Saddiq - Righteous
Hesed - Loyal

they're all like hebrew or sth, kinda cool!

we stayed in this bungalow/chalet place thingy somewhere around changi, at first we only had 1, but on the second day we had 2, haha. we had lots of activites there, some team building stuff, devotion time, praise and worship, water bombs, and most fun of all, the skit, which was abt a made up story on how our tribes came to be, some of them were really really funny! haha.

after that we went christmas carolling to our church members' houses, mine included! oh dear.. haha, but it was interesting and fun too!

lastly, hope ya'll have a blessed and fun christmas!

signing off

2007-12-20T19:19:00.000+08:00

ice skating yesterday!
or supposed ice skating yesterday.. they didnt have some of the skate sizes, and the rink was packed, so we ended watching national treasure instead, pretty interesting, haha. and, ming ching, you are super reactive man! haha!

moving on...

went to escape today!
well, it kept drizzling at first but esp wen jie, kept being the optimist and hoped tt the drizzle would go away. well, to pass the time, we kept going into the haunted house thingy while it was still drizzling, haha and took the rides when the drizzle FINALLY stopped.

all in all, two interesting days (: and tml's the youth camp til the 24th. now tt should be interesting! haha!

signing off

2007-12-16T22:51:00.000+08:00

well, the phrase ''christmas is coming'' seems to be pretty common now. i wonder wad do ppl actually think when they think of christmas. i think someone i know would hug is pillow and think of the presents he may get, haha!! different ppl have their own perception of christmas i suppose, it's wad makes each of us so unique!

changing the subject..

i've tried eating cooked woodlice and spiders today! the spiders were really big man! haha, i've been wanting to try eating bugs but never really got a chance to til today, since the mission trippers from my church came back from cambodia recently, someone brought back some.
*caution! the following opinions may disturb some!* well.. the woodlice has a strong smell and tastes abit like 'kachang puteh', (not too sure of it's spelling) only it's softer and... ''buggier''! haha! the spiders on the other hand, tastes like fried kway teow, well the legs and head do, while the abdomen has an eggy taste to it, possibly because of the spider's eggs? all in all, they both taste weird but, hey! i get to broaden my horizons! dont i? maybe i just have to get used to it's taste.

signing off

2007-12-13T09:30:00.000+08:00

we are, if anything, creatures of habit. Drawn to the safety and comfort of a familiar.
- Dr Mohinder Suresh

kinda true don't you think? even if it's from a fictitious character. We really are drawn to a familiar, and most of the time we'd prefer doing things or experiencing things that we have done or experienced. i suppose you could define this as a fear to face new challenges. then again, it is a definition; something people give themselves to explain what they're not too sure of. that previous statement was a definition of definition by yours truly. yet how are people so sure that their definition of something applies to everyone around them? i suppose we define something that applies mainly to our lives, but there are times where we ourselves are unsure of the definition of something that affects us, and we are then left to ponder, ''what is it?'' and something we don't know, is not something familiar.

signing off

2007-12-11T12:00:00.000+08:00

i've never given it much thought but seriosuly, coughing SUCKS! BIG TIME! you cant have a normal conversation without a cough breaking out in its midst, you cant even get to sleep properly cos you have to get up to cough, one word.. SICKENING! haha

signing off

2007-12-11T11:19:00.000+08:00

ok, here's the deal, i have a blog.. wow! i have a blog! didnt think i'd actually make one. haha, how weird, i wonder why i'm doing this in the first place, oh well.

hmm... i guess i'll only blog when i'm in the mood or when i do have sth to blog abt. credits goes to wenjie and minette for helping me with some stuff here and there. haha, and so with that, here's to my first post and blog. lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala (i actually typed tt without using backspace at all! neat huh? :D)

signing off, ta!~